If you will...

Yesterday was an extremely rough day. When I woke up to let the pups out, Leah couldn't really walk. All day she struggled to stand, to move a few feet, and to just sit. Her legs were so weak and shaky she couldn't even lift her legs enough to climb onto her doggy bed.

It is the absolute worst feeling to sit next to her and not be able to help her in anyway. I cried all day wondering if I would know how bad it was going to get for her, wondering if she was able to get better from this, wondering if she was in pain...wondering if I had to take her to the vet to have her go to sleep. I know that some people (non-pet people) won't understand, but I kept thinking to myself how unfair it was. She's only 6.

Early in the day I had moved her food and water to be closer to her, and she continued her daily habits which at least let me know she was kind of okay. I blew up an air mattress last night and put it right in the middle of the living room. I helped her onto the mattress …

...Leah's most ruthless nemesis to date; she has once again tested positive for Valley Fever...that s.o.b.

Leah first tested positive last summer and ended up taking pills (fluconazole, an anti-fungus treatment), twice a day, for eleven months. Her overall health at onset was disheartening at best. I didn't think she was going to live, and naturally, it crushed me. She was, and is, my baby. Her movement seemed horribly arduous and her appetite wasn't good. We could barely get her to go outside, and when she did make it out of the house she would lay down immediately. However, over the months with treatment, her energy level increased dramatically and her behaviors morphed, once again youthful, as she reignited her habit of racing me up the big hill in our neighborhood.

She again started acting funny, very unlike herself, a couple weeks ago...just like she had before the first diagnosis. Her movements seemed more restrictive, like she was sore. She was acting way less patie…