Showing posts from December, 2016

Helloooooooo 2017

One of my goals for 2016 was to try out six new hiking/walking trails. A few of them were planned for this past summer when husband and I were on our road trip with the Avett Brothers. Unfortunately, as you all know, our summer and fall didn't go exactly as scheduled. Things happen.

We completed that goal this week. Yesterday actually. Although cutting it a little close, it's been a great way to say goodbye to a damned difficult year.

Fountain Hills Overlook Trail 

Butcher Jones 

Papago Park

Silly Mountain

The Day will Come, The Sun will Rise and We'll be Fine

I've eaten more in the last week than I did in all of August. It's unreal to think back and see where I was... who I was. I can't stress that enough, especially to myself. Panic attacks arrived regularly alongside the most basic tasks of my life: eating, sleeping, showering, and going to the bathroom in addition to bigger hurdles like leaving the house and being alone. Talk about uncomfortable. Mentally, I had all but given up. I had no real understanding of what I was going through and I hated hearing how "it would all get better" because I simply didn't believe it. The only real solace, if I had any at all, was in looking to the next day in hopes I would feel better. Those hopes still continue, but now they're a little differently focused.

After dropping three of five classes this last semester I spent most of that "extra" time turning inward. Since I was incapable of much else I basically put myself through an anxiety boot camp, reading all …